12.18.2012

Leaving...

Well, this is it. I'm off to another country to speak another language and to have the best experience of my life.

While I'm gone, my mission updates (my emails, addresses, etc.) will be on my mission blog. Which is here, http://hermanaferrell.blogspot.com/

Much love, blogging world. I'll be back before you know it!

Adios ;) 

12.11.2012

Just Life

This post has 3 topics. Brace yourself.

1. I'm leaving in a week. It doesn't feel real. There are so many things I'm leaving behind me. Things that I know will be here when I get back. Things I know will be somewhere in my future. Things that will never  have a place in my life anymore. I can just feel that my whole life is about to really change. It's a little scary. I'm comfortable right now where I am and as dreamy as new adventures sound, it's hard to actually get on your way.

2. I hate small talk. Okay, I take that back. I don't always hate it. Sometimes it's how you become friends with people. But I hate it when you're in one of those "I want to have a deep talk and cut the crap" moods. I love this quote,

"I hate small talk because I feel like there's an elephant standing in the room and nobody is saying anything. I just want to say, 'Hey, do you feel an emptiness inside your chest at night that is going to swallow you?' or 'are you scared out of your mind to move forward in life?' or 'what are you very most afraid of and why?' But you can't say those things at a cocktail party."

Seriously though. Sometimes I just want to hear people's fears and worries and let them talk about the things they love and are passionate about. I want to talk about mine. I just want to talk. And not about stupid things. About the stuff that matters. I love it when I catch people at just the right moment to have a chat like that. But when I don't (or am just stuck in the library studying) I have to think those things through myself. Which is never as enjoyable. 

3. I adore The Phantom of the Opera. For real!! I've seen it performed a few times, but I have to say, the movie is bomb. I just LOVE that movie! I feel for the Phantom. So sad, but such a great story about how love is sometimes the only thing strong enough to change people. And the music! AMAZING. Christine is gorgeous. The song, Think of Me, is one of my very most favorite songs ever. The lyrics make me cry if I'm in the right mood. I'm not kidding. Today, it made me tear up when I was writing in my journal. Hahah, wowza. How dramatic does that sound? Eh, whatever. I'm a girl and I love a good love story. Also, the song Masquerade is another great one. Ah, this musical is the best. 


This Heart of Mine

I have no idea who reads this blog, but sorry for being repetitive. But here's why I blog: to get my feelings out. I can work things out and figure out how I feel. I can vent. I can think. I don't really write to keep an audience... maybe I should... but for now, I'm writing for me. And I'm really going to miss that on my mission. I guess my personal journal will have to take the place of this blog.

Looking back on my life, I've changed a lot this year. I've made a lot of mistakes. I've hurt people I love. I've been careless with the feelings of others. I've spoken without thinking. Stayed up too late and studied too little. Said some goodbyes I really didn't want to say. But... with all those flaws and mistakes of mine, I've had some really beautiful times as well. I've made absolutely incredible friends. I fell in love. I was so, so happy. I learned a lot about following your heart. I got my mission call. Lost a lot of weight. Became closer with my family. Cut my hair...

So here I am. A mixture of experiences that have left me decidedly and unalterably changed. 


12.07.2012

End of Work... for now!

I just love my job. Seriously, I work with some of the coolest people ever. I've had some incredible opportunities and learned so much. Lots of good talks and absolutely hilarious moments. So today Adam and Rebecca sang and played the uke for me today because it was last day of work! They did Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon Levitt's song called What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? Haha that way I can remember them on New Year's Eve! Seriously, so great. I'll miss this job A TON. But I guess I'm moving on to different things now. A very new type of work lies ahead of me!




11.14.2012

It Means No Worries

I'm unsure, I don't exactly know, I'm not completely over, I'm still learning, and I'm kind of worried. But you know what?

11.09.2012

Classic

I'm so excited to leave on December 19th. BUT that means I'm missing this:


Which comes out Christmas day.  I expect someone to write me and give me & give me ALL the details as soon as they see it. Because I love this story. Few other things have touched my heart as deeply as this book has. I'm currently on my 4th time re-reading this novel. Seriously, it's my very favorite book. I know it's unbelievably long, but that's also I reason I'm so in love with it. By the time you finish you feel as if you know intimately know the characters & feel completely in 19th century France. Whenever I finish Les Mis I end up aimlesly wandering around unsure of what to do with my life. But it's just an amazing story. Full of lessons about new beginnings, mercy, justice, change, love, misery, good-hearted people, down right evil ones, &, like it's title implies, misery. Time for some quotes!!  & I've just picked out some short ones (because trust me, Victor Hugo can be one long winded guy)


“Even the darkest night will end & the sun will rise.” 

“To love another person is to see the face of God.” 

“Laughter is sunshine, it chases winter from the human face.” 

“To love or have loved, that is enough. Ask nothing further. There is no other pearl to be found in the dark folds of life.” 

“Those who do not weep, do not see.” 

"If the soul is left in darkness sins will be committed. The guilty one is not he who commits the sin, but he who causes the darkness.” 

Diamonds are to be found only in the darkness of the earth, and truth in the darkness of the mind. ”

"For there are many great deeds done in the small struggles of life.”

"It is time for us all to decide who we are."


Okay I'll stop. Even though I could easily go on for pages & pages... Every time I read it I something new stands out to me & teaches me a new principles. I'm constantly having new experiences in life so different things speak to me at different times of life. That's the beauty of reading classic literature! It teaches truths that apply at all stages of life & you can learn & re-learn them over & over. While there's lots of brain candy books out there (I don't think I need to specify!) that are super fun to read, they're not books that you can come back to time & time again. You read that type of literature for the plot, not the principles. Those books don't change your life like classic literature does.

Here are some of my favorite classic books that have really changed me:

--Les Miserables by Victory Huge (obviously.)
--The Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens (I give my spiel on that here)
--Uncle Tom's Cabin by Harriet Beecher Stowe
--The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandra Dumas
--The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky
--Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte
--The Odyssey by Homer
--Ben Hur by Lew Wallace
--The Robe by Lloyd Douglass
--The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne (contrary to the opinion of most AP Englishers)

Read those. Or put them on your list. They're books that will make everyone's lives better. I can say that because it's been true in my own. If you can't tell, I'm a reader. I'd rather have my nose in a book than doing most other things. I really love to read. Especially in my pre-college days when I actually had time to read a thousand page book! Because let's face it, high school was like a breezy summer day. College, on the other hand, is like the harshest Antartica winter. So... not as much time to read whatever I like.

Well, what I originally intended to tell you, is how anxious I am to see this movie. & now I'll just have to wait a few years to see it! Oh well, I guess that it will be waiting for me when I get home... At least I won't miss the Hobbit! 

11.08.2012

Do You Remember That?

Memories... the times of our past we never really seem to forget. Isn't it interesting, looking back, we remember certain moments so clearly? & in the midst of those moments of life we never knew that one day we'd look back with such emotion on those times. Those days seemed normal, average, & ordinary. Just days lived with people at places we loved & enjoyed at the time, but didn't realize they'd become so deeply etched into our future hearts. & that's the beauty of it. If we knew those moments would one day bear so much weight  it would be impossible to enjoy the here & now.

The passing of time does interesting things. It tends to put a golden light upon the lovely times & somehow seems to dull the darker ones. But still, certain things bring out those forgotten emotions pretty strong. Memories come flooding back to you & your past experience really doesn't seem past at all. You wish you were there again at that beautiful place looking at those awe inspiring buildings and art. Or feeling the strong acceptance & happiness you've felt with friends & family. Or re-living those days filled with stressful excitement & anxiety but ended up so absolutely great. But then something somehow reminds you that things are different &  to enjoy the stage of life where you are. So that later on you can look back with the same fondness about the things you're currently experiencing. 

Like you, I've had some really wonderful memories about my times wandering through love, adventure, college, friendships, family relationships, religion, continents, & cultures. Most things I like to remember. Other memories cause a little too much longing. While others have a very special place in my heart. Memories are a way of holding onto things you never want to lose & I guess that's what life is all about, is it not? Experiencing life & allowing the memories to make us a better person for it. 

11.05.2012

On Being Right

It's the day before election. I, like everyone else, have a view of the world. I definitely endorse a specific candidate & strongly oppose the other. I have my idea of how I would like America to run & am voting for the candidate that best fits that view. I'll be disappointed if that person loses because I think he'll steer the country in the right direction. But I try hard to respect both men running. They are both educated & successful.  But this isn't a political blog & I think there are PLENTY of people hashing all these issues over & over & over & over & over & over again. However, I suppose I should probably throw my opinion into the mess anyways. If you'll allow, here it goes...

I see so many hateful things spread, especially online. Remarks springing from extremely closed minds & prideful notions. Name calling & incredibly offensive things. People getting furious with their friends & carelessly insulting family members. People fight all over facebook & delete their friends over remarks made. Others get into full blown arguments because they are absolutely unwilling to see the other side. Christian ethics seem to slide right out the window.

Yes, I believe debate is good. It's an awesome thing to have a well thought-out stance. Intelligent arguments should be a key dynamic of the media. I think every American should have an opinion and be able to support it with good reasons. I enjoy participating in & listening to people's ideas presented in a mature light. There are lots of people that I know that are just that: open minded & respectful. & I really look up to those people, particularly at this time of year. They are examples to me of what a good citizen should be. Chances are, many of you reading this may fall into that category. But out of a more general reminder, especially to myself, I'm posting this because I've heard/seen too much yelling, fighting, & contention that is ridiculous. There's always a different side to the issue. Always. I heard a very true statement from a well known public speaker.

In a very eloquent way she says this. That sometimes when we find another person who disagrees with our opinions, it is human nature to first think they are ignorant & just don't know what they're talking about. If we find out they actually are quite well informed, our next inclination is to believe they must be inherently evil. I think this is most commonly seen in the beautiful and kind world of politics, (Sarcasm added) I don't know about you, but I've heard both candidates called both of those adjectives to the extreme. 

So as today is election eve, let's remember this: there are countless ways to view the world. Everyone's experiences shape their paradigm and what they feel. The economic situation you are born into. Where you grew up. What you're going through now. Personal struggles you face. The people you know and love. & countless other things since no one lives identical lives. I think diversity is the spice of life. Let me ask a question:

How do we even know we're right?


We can only say we are according to our own area of expertise & within the walls of our own lives. How can we accuse someone of being wrong when we don't live in their head? So maybe during the next few days we can all remember (myself MOST definitely included in this) that everybody sees things differently & thus the hate doesn't need to be spread. But it's just a thought...




11.01.2012

Riddle Me This

"We plan our lives according to a dream that came to us in our childhood, & we find that life alters our plans. & yet, at the end, from a rare height, we also see that our dream was our fate. It's just that providence had other ideas as to how we would get there. Destiny plans a different route, or turns the dream around as if it were a riddle, and fulfills the dream in ways we couldn't have expected." -Ben Okri

Isn't that lovely? I feel it in my own life. Life does indeed have a way of changing our path & for a time it may seem like we've been pushed on a completely different road. Only to find later, from that clarifying & rare height, that we just needed to take another route to our dreams. I like how that quote puts life, as a riddle. We're constantly trying to figure it out, & the answers often come as things we never expect. The answer seems so difficult and confusing and obscure as we go. Sometimes we might even give up trying to figure it out. & we sometimes have to give it time to work itself out in our minds. But once we have enough experience to see the answer, it's perfectly clear. Just like a riddle.

10.30.2012

The Playlist Of My Life



"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything." 

Listening to my iPod while running tonight, I realized something. Music can be so powerful and full of emotion. Music can take me back to the happiest and saddest times of my life, the times I'm dying to re-live and the times I've forgotten. When I'm feeling a certain way there's almost always a song to accompany that emotion. It's interesting really how certain songs make me cry. Some make me want to dance. Others pump me up when I'm running. Some are inspiring and make me want to be a better person. Some make me feel closer to heaven. And then there are those that bring back memories so strong it's like they just happened. It's true that music conveys things that normal words can't. If I had to create a playlist to capture my current stage of life, it would tell you so much about who I am. What I feel. My experiences with love and heartbreak. What makes me happy. The things that make me sad. How I see the world. Where I want to go. And how I want to live. Whether it's listening to modern music via good ole' Apple devices or playing a musical instrument or listening to a vocalist or a musical or a concert, music is therapeutic and beautiful. Sometimes painfully so and sometimes brings incredible peace. But regardless, it always evokes some sort of emotion from me. I once heard someone say something that I'll always remember and that I find completely true,

"music is what feelings sounds like." 





10.27.2012

Me Encanta Chile

Alright, I warned you. Lots of posts about Chile coming your way! I'm so excited to spend my next year and a half in this beautiful foreign country. From the hours I've spent researching this lovely place I have already fallen in love. The area I will be in stretches from the coast up into the Andes mountains. I've also got a few islands in there as well! Pablos Neruda, a famous novelist, said Chile was "invented by a poet." And I agree. Based on what I've seen this is a one pretty country. Take a look...

I love the winding streets. And the pretty colors! 
A town on stilts!
Beautiful Andes mountains. I love how they dwarf the city.
Pretty.
Does it get much more beautiful than this?? 
The gorgeous countryside. I want to spend a lot of time in these big open spaces!
Almost looks like a city from Spain... but nope. It's CHILE!
I already adore those Andes.
Very old adobe Catholic church.
LOVE the fact that I'll be spending time on the coast.
Seriously those mountains are dang cool.
Easter Island. Probably won't spend any time here, but still,
 it just proves that Chile is awesome.
I'm SO excited about all the fruits and vegetables. I love vendors like this!


I think it's safe to say I'm going to one of the neatest places in the world. Good thing December will be here so soon. I couldn't wait much longer to go! 

10.25.2012

The BIG day

Yesterday was the most intense day of my life. I was so anxious/nervous/excited/scared to open my mission call! Because it determines where I'll spend the next 18 months, and really could change my entire life. I felt like if people around me could hear my thoughts they'd think I was a crazy woman. I kept thinking about all these places I could go... and ANYWHERE consists of a lot of places!

Because I know you all care about the intricacies of my thoughts, I'll share my pre-mission call ones! So yesterday. I thought I was for sure going stateside or to Europe. I never realistically thought about going to South America or Asia! Not that I was opposed to either, I just wasn't feeling it. That probably gives the ending away. But let's be real, if you're reading this I'm sure you already know where I'm going! Concentrating during work and classes was just too much of a trial, so I pulled up the list of missions probably around 5 times and kept looking over it again and again. I had a lot of places I wanted to go, and a few I didn't want to so much. I told myself somewhere around 400 times that I would love wherever I went. That I knew it would be where I was supposed to be. And it would be awesome. But still, I was nervous.

I kept envisioning me opening my call and seeing that mission name. Every time I did butterflies just filled my stomach. I've never been more full of emotion about anything in my life. I finally get through my never-ending day at school and get back to my apartment to my roommates freaking out! We run out the door, pick up my sister, and book it to my house. I was getting a little impatient with slow drivers! We get there and my family has put up a map and guessed where I'm going. As you can see by the pictures below, all the majority of the guesses were to North America or Europe. And only one in South America, which I will add was guessed by my 2 year old brother. So not really valid ;) My parents, siblings, and best friends (aka roomies) all convene. Meanwhile, I'm having a meltdown of excitement.

THE LETTER.
You can see the fireworks/prizes in the background!
My sister.. and me looking crazy cause I'm so stoked!

The best friends I could ever have in life. So supportive! Love them all.

I can't describe the feeling. It was surreal. I've waited my whole life for this moment! Opening the call I knew my life would never be the same. So finally it's time. I open the letter with my heart practically leaping out of my chest. I just can't believe I'm actually opening my mission call. Here we go...



My eyes go exactly to the country... I can't believe it!! I hadn't even thought about going to this country once, but the moment I read the name I just knew it was exactly the absolute perfect place for me.

Folks, I'm off to CHILE!!

To be specific, the Concepcion South mission. Isn't that just awesome? I could not be happier. I'm thrilled beyond words to be going! Reflecting on it today, no other place in the world feels as right as Chile does. Nowhere. It's simply the perfect place for me to go spread the gospel! The more I think about it the more right it feels and the more excited I get.

My parents are so happy too!! They both served in Spanish speaking missions (mom- Peru. Dad- Dominican Republic) so they already love South America! I honestly did not think I was going there and I'm so happy I was wrong about that.

After we called all the relatives and friends my mom served delicious soup and pumpkin pie. Then dad and my bros lit off legit fireworks. You know, the kind that go way up in the sky and explode. Here are pictures to illustrate how cool my family is!



It was a great day. So surreal. Definitely the best letter I ever have and ever will receive! And I leave SO soon. December 19th!! So much to do in so little time. But I can't explain how excited I am to serve the Chilean people. It was hard focusing on work today because I was researching this beautiful country! Brace yourselves for multiple posts about this big new adventure in my life :)

Thanks for reading and being excited with me. Nothing in my life has ever felt so right. 

10.23.2012

Tuesday Favorites

There is nothing better than waking up in the middle of the night to a rainstorm. The sound of rain is calming and peaceful. Walking to school with clouds in the air and the smell of rain still fresh is serene and I love it. 


I'm kind of freaking out about my mission call. I find out tomorrow! Where in the world will I go? Anywhere from Boise to Hong Kong... and you know, I guess I really don't care. Yes I have my preferences but I would be thrilled to go anywhere. I'm just so happy to be going!


I'm also loving this album. It's so fun to get new music because I actually have a little motivation to go running! My favorites= All Too Well, Red, Starlight, & The Moment I Knew (are you allowed to have 4 favorites??)


I wish I could paint/draw. Really, I wish. Unfortunately I have no talent in art at ALL. And believe me, it's not one of those things if you practice a lot then you can be good. I'm just not good. But I really wish I could paint beautiful pictures like this...


They're not brown paper packages tied up with string or anything, but these are a few of my favorite things today!

10.22.2012

Everything has changed.

It's interesting to look around in my life and see that nothing is the same. This time last month my priorities and focus and thoughts were in completely different places than right now. Life can change so fast so suddenly that it feels like I'm still running trying to keep up with it. I still am surprised by the direction my life is going now. It's been practically a 180 degree change. Let me tell you, it's been a roller coaster of a month. It's not easy letting someone go that means a lot to you. Or re-evaluating everything you thought was important. Or following your heart. Or taking a deep look inside of you to figure out who you've become.

It's hard to honestly look into that mirror inside of you and evaluate who you are and what you need to change. It's also challenging to change road maps. The past few weeks have consisted of long walks and lot's of time on my knees. I've learned you have to learn from the past but you can't dwell on it. You've got to fill the gaps with new things. Better things. Some experiences in life are meant to jar you and get you out of your comfort zone so you can progress to the next level, if you let it. Someone once said "New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings." Life is supposed to mold and refine. And it's a rewarding feeling to know you are coming closer to where you should be.

So here I am having gone through all that stuff above and I'm watching General Conference with my family ready for a little inspiration. I definitely wasn't ready for what would be announced. Here's my probably not so shocking news: I'm going on a mission. I've never felt so sure about anything in life. And nothing has ever felt so right. I'm going and I'm going soon. In fact, I get my call Wednesday. I'm so stoked I can hardly stand it! So stay tuned for that :) This announcement means so much to me. I know that for the rest of my life I'll look back at that day and be so thankful for the way it changed my life. 

Sometimes life can be hard but it's beautiful. Things work out. The world spins on. I'm getting older and growing up. Now I just can't actually believe that I'm going a mission. The past month has been an interesting one, but I can honestly say:

I love the road I'm on.

10.04.2012

Red

I have a big update! Prepare to hear a lot about this in the coming months because I'm pretty excited. I'm going to have a tremendous amount of work to do beforehand but I can't wait for next August to get here. I'm sure my parents are a little reserved about their blue eyed, blonde haired daughter going here.... but here's my news: I'm going to study abroad in the Middle East next fall!

Don't worry though. I'm not going anywhere too dangerous. I'm going to the country of Jordan! It does happen to border Syria, Iraq, Saudi Arabia, and Egypt....which are all are having some type of civil war going on... and have some major problems...but we don't need to think about that :) Hey, at least the nuclear bombs will be going over my head, right? 


I kid, but seriously it'll be an adventure. The program is through BYU and it's an intensive Arabic study abroad.  Arabic is such an intense/cool language and is definitely challenging, but I do love it. I actually decided to add officially add Arabic as a second major, so that is also a fun update on the life of me. So in addition to four months in Jordan, I get to go to Israel for a few weeks. Which will be beyond incredible. Obviously. If you can't tell, I'm really stoked. Here's little sample to lead me into my next point...

!أنا أحب تايلور سويفت وأريد أن أذهب إلى حفلتها سيئة للغاية

Now here's a completely American girl thing. Let's talk about Taylor Swift. I have no idea how she can keep on making such great songs. I watched a parody of her stuff where this guy said "I feel like she took the words right out of my diary!" I know he was mocking, but um, well, that is kind of how I feel! This is seriously a great song. This album is coming out October 22nd and I guess you could say I'm looking forward to that. I have a feeling it will become my entire apartment's official soundtrack! And I'm so fine with that. Have a listen...


9.26.2012

Change #2



True words from The Great Gatsby. Change is definitely in the air. As Fall comes though it just seems as if everything is getting a little colder. I remember my very first post ever on this blog I talked about change and how much I love it and how great it is. Re-reading that again, I'm surprised by how much I've learned in just a few months. If you so desire, you can read that post here. But I've changed (ha, ironic) my mind on that. Generally, it's still appealing. Sometimes. But I've learned quite another side of change...

Change can be so very, very hard. Especially when it's not just the natural happenings of life, but when you choose to initiate something that changes your life. It's cliche to say "follow your heart" and people like to throw that around like it's nothing. Like it's always an easy thing to do. Like it's a romantic and exciting thing. I guess yeah can be cool if the opportunity is right. But I'm calling it: it's awful sometimes. It's scary. And depending on what the decision deals with, it hurts real bad. I suppose the older I get the harder and more important the choices get. And bigger decisions means bigger chance for loss. 

Seasons change in nature and in life. Things are definitely different than the summer and it will take me quite a while to get used to the changes that fall (and my own heart) have brought into my life. 

9.12.2012

Marvel... And not the comics!


Life is busy. Sometimes I don't know where to start making decisions. Or I have way too many opinions about something. I like to have things mapped out and planned. Not knowing is hard for me. Particularly when reality comes knocking on the door. There are places I want to visit and things I want to do.

It's definitely good to have a plan. And dreams. And ambitions. But constant opinions being thrown around usually makes me more confused.  Lately, I've been re-discovering how good alone time can be. Especially when it's just you. The reason all this is on my mind is probably because I was talking to someone today who gave me some solid advice: spend time just figuring out what you want. From life. From relationships. From your future. From yourself. From your goals and dreams.

I came across this quote a while ago from the movie Eat Pray Love: "I just want to go some place where I can marvel at something." From conversations I've had with friends, I know that a lot of people feel like this. Including me at times.

Yes, I love travelling. I really do. But I've also realized some other things recently. Part of life is finding things that make you "marvel" where you are instead of constantly needing to go elsewhere to find inspiration. Because very few people can afford to travel to across continents every time their life needs a boost! At least, I'm definitely can't. While I think every one should travel, it's also really importnat to find things to marvel at wherever home is for you. In your career. Or love life. Or in friends. Or religion. Or hobbies. Or things that we pass by every day because we become accustomed to them.

"So start listening to the silent spaces in your thoughts and enjoy the wells of peace that exist within them"

I have no idea who said that, but I LOVE it. So I guess that's where I am: building a life that is fulfilling. Simple as pie right? ;)

....On a completely unrelated note, why do we use that expression? Have you ever made a pie?! Because I trust me on this. It's no easy feat. 

9.11.2012

The Best Of Times

I was debating if life was worth living this morning when my alarm clock blared at 5:30. It was a long night and I didn't hit the hay till almost 4 in the blessed AM. So if this post isn't my absolute best, please take that little fact into consideration!

The reason for this late night was because I had a close friend that really needed to talk. After a long talk with them I felt a bit overwhelmed with how awful the world can be sometimes. For some reason, I always tend to think of my tight circle of family and friends is invincible to what the world hurls at people. But oh how untrue that is. Things happen you don't expect. People can make some pretty bad choices sometimes. And those decisions can impact you and those you care about. But I do not believe in living a pessimistic lifestyle. As I get older I understand the importance of being real. It's completely fine to cry and have a bad day. If you dwell on the negative, though, then life becomes completely void of goodness and all you can see is the bad. The trick is constantly reminding yourself of the great things life has to offer.

For instance, on my way to the library at 6:30 this morning I took my iPod out and was devastated to see it was practically dead. I mean come on, how in hades could I survive the 15 minute walk to campus?!  But in the midst of my walk I was struck with how beautiful and still the world is right before it wakes up. It's quite serene. And all the though the world isn't even close to perfect, it's nowhere close to evil either. There is a tremendous amount of lovely things in this world. I honestly couldn't be happier to be alive and living in this time. Like the fabulous Charles Dickens wrote, it's the best of times and the worst of times. But I am lucky enough to live a life where I can spend most of my time living in the "best of times" category. I think that most of that is because there are people that I love who are genuinely good and who bring SO much happiness into my life.

Which brings me to my next topic of discussion...

So on Saturday my great boyfriend totally surprised me with flowers and a perfect home-cooked dinner. My heart just melted a bit over that! What a great guy, right? I absolutely love surprises. Especially when people go out of their way to do something special for me. It makes me feel so loved that someone would actually do something so sweet just for me! Yeah it was just a perfect date. I think I may have said this before on this blog, but I really appreciate having a boyfriend who tries so hard to understand me, lets me talk about all of my pointless dramas over and over, supports my ambitions, listens to me, puts up with my quirkiness (which albeit, does occasionally come out), and most importantly that I can trust.


So here's to enjoying the best of times! 

9.06.2012

Life as a Soph

Sorry for the lack of posting recently! It has been crazy lately with school starting. But I miss my blog!

Being back here at BYU as a sophomore makes me realize how much I've learned since walking onto this campus as a naive freshman. I guess I'm still naive about a lot in life, but I understand a little bit more. This last year has taught me a lot about life and about myself. Things are starting to "click" for me and I feel like I have begun to discover my path in  life. Kind of. There is still a tremendous amount of unknown, but I can see things starting to piece together. And that is a very nice feeling. It's great living with my friends again. I've forgotten how hard they make me laugh and what good conversations we can have. I missed them a ton over the summer!

I will admit, it's SO nice working part-time. The summer of 8+ hours a day just was a little much! I have gained a new appreciation for the Air Force though. I feel very privileged to have this job and learn so much about this branch of the military. Depends on the day, but I generally really like my job. I work with awesome people and because of our hilarious/crazy chats I made it through the summer. I don't think any other workplace in the world is so open!

The paperwork can get nightmare-ish sometimes, but let's get real: welcome to the way government does business. We easily go through a small forest a day. But regardless, it's neat to see the respect and honor the cadets (most of them) and officers treat America with.  Even though not all of these officers and cadets exactly agree with every current policy in the modern government, but they  all absolutely revere what America stands for: our fundamental principles and values.They all agree on that and fight for it. It's impressive to witness such patriotism! Watching the care and respect the color guard brings the flag in with is very moving. Sometimes all you hear in the news are stories slamming our military and highlighting events where people show hatred to America. And it's really refreshing to have a job to balance that out. While I don't necessarily agree with what policy makers in Washington are doing, I do support and respect what men and women sacrifice to serve in the Armed Forces.

Being here daily at the ROTC reminds me what being an American means. It's interesting having the ROTC be on an LDS college campus. Lots of the pictures hung on the walls are scenes from the Bible, Book of Mormon, Revolutionary War, and other wars. It's a good reminder that these men (and others like them) fight for the things that are very dear to me. And I appreciate that. Most of these cadets view their role in the military more than just a job. They recognize the lives they potentially could hold in their hands and the responsibility that comes along with that. Even though I'm just a secretary, they treat with me respect....with only one or two exceptions! I'd never been called ma'am before till this job. I have also got in the habit of calling older men "sir." Yes, I accidentally called my bishop "sir" the other day. Which was a bit weird. In my very, very, very, very insignificantly minuscule way, it's cool to have a job that effects the military of the United States. But here are some pics of things happening around the ROTC from the time when I first started my job last winter! We had a change of command ceremony last week and it is incredibly touching to see all of the cadets and officers in their sharp blue uniforms. Gotta love a guy in a uniform!


Honoring those who lose their lives in war
Dining out! This was so fun, and SOOO  formal.

The inner workings of the office.... not quite as professional as those cadets.



I feel really lucky to have scored such a good job. I have high hopes that this semester will be successful. Also, I promise I won't take so long to update my beloved little blog again!

8.13.2012

Water

I want to go somewhere. Anywhere.

I really dislike monotony and I'm really looking forward to the change fall will bring. I just feel like going on a trip! However, due to my real big lack of money that is not looking feasible. I wouldn't even need a huge glamorous trip to  Europe. A local road trip would satisfy me just fine. I'm just craving an adventure of sorts! I could really use the beach right now. The coastline has always been so amazing to me! And absolutely beautiful. The gist of my emotions is this: I want to go somewhere pretty and feel inspired!   





Gorgeous, right? Ah I want to leave Provo! 

However. I believe you can find some magical moments even if you aren't in the most aesthetically pleasing place. There are some wonderful moments that can happen anytime. Especially if you aren't planning or expecting them. Most of the time, those moments make the bets memories!This past week I think I realized just how much I love the rain. Call me a mermaid, but I am loving the water right now. Don't you agree though? There is something about a rainstorm. The smell and feel of the air is just enchanting. It turns you into a dreamer. Makes you feel cozy if indoors. And adventurous if outside!


Being outside during a rainstorm :)

Big cities in the rain= my favorite thing

Curling up with a blanket and watching the rain.
 It's even better if you've got a cute guy to cuddle with :)


Looking classy in the rain


There is just something about a good rainy day that gives me energy. But as much as I do love rainy days, I still want the beach. I guess I'll just have to wait for the next rainstorm because it's highly doubtful the coast will be receiving a visit from me anytime too soon!