I want to go somewhere. Anywhere.

I really dislike monotony and I'm really looking forward to the change fall will bring. I just feel like going on a trip! However, due to my real big lack of money that is not looking feasible. I wouldn't even need a huge glamorous trip to  Europe. A local road trip would satisfy me just fine. I'm just craving an adventure of sorts! I could really use the beach right now. The coastline has always been so amazing to me! And absolutely beautiful. The gist of my emotions is this: I want to go somewhere pretty and feel inspired!   

Gorgeous, right? Ah I want to leave Provo! 

However. I believe you can find some magical moments even if you aren't in the most aesthetically pleasing place. There are some wonderful moments that can happen anytime. Especially if you aren't planning or expecting them. Most of the time, those moments make the bets memories!This past week I think I realized just how much I love the rain. Call me a mermaid, but I am loving the water right now. Don't you agree though? There is something about a rainstorm. The smell and feel of the air is just enchanting. It turns you into a dreamer. Makes you feel cozy if indoors. And adventurous if outside!

Being outside during a rainstorm :)

Big cities in the rain= my favorite thing

Curling up with a blanket and watching the rain.
 It's even better if you've got a cute guy to cuddle with :)

Looking classy in the rain

There is just something about a good rainy day that gives me energy. But as much as I do love rainy days, I still want the beach. I guess I'll just have to wait for the next rainstorm because it's highly doubtful the coast will be receiving a visit from me anytime too soon!


Bruce & Sydney

"It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest I go to than I have ever known." 

Ring a bell? Well if you're a reader of classic literature you should definitely recognize it. But if you've seen the latest Batman movie it will also be familiar. So that covers just about everyone! I got chills when I heard this quote read in The Dark Knight Rises. Probably because this quote is from Charles Dicken's A Tale of Two Cities, which is one of my very favorite books. And also because the character that speaks these moving lines is one of the neatest, Sydney Carton.  And also due to the fact the chapter in which this quote comes from is incredibly moving. It's the last scene of the book and let's just say the tears are flowing at that point!

I will do my best to quickly sum up a complicated, beautiful, and tragic story in just a few sentences. Sydney Carton  is a drunk and crude man who is wasting his life and money away on the streets of revolutionary Paris (of course, the book is French. Like everything else I adore!). He falls in love with a woman named Lucy. Ultimately she picks another man, but her love changes Sydney. He becomes a good man again. When Lucy's new husband is unjustly sentenced to die at the Guillotine, Sydney bravely takes his place to die so that his true love can live in happiness. He says, "it is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a a far, far better rest I go to than I have ever known" as he is standing at the entrance of the prison about to be lead to his death. It's a story about redemption, courage, and love. Plus a lot of other themes and plots that make this book amazing.

I find it interesting that Sydney Carton's final words were read at the "funeral" of Bruce Wayne. A man who gave up a great deal so that others could have happiness and safety. I guess the idea of sacrifice has been on my mind lately. Giving something up for the benefit of others. I'm not talking about service where you dole out expendable things. But rather deep rooted causes that ignite something in your soul. Sydney Carton and Bruce Wayne are examples of extremity. We're rarely faced with opportunities to die for the ones we love. Or don a mask and give our lives to protect our city.

These are both made up people, but still reflect things exemplified by many. I look back at the figures I have studied in history. The characters I love from books. Relatives from my ancestry. People alive today, both that I know personally and from from observation. Many, many people have been faced with difficult decisions, and have chosen very selflessly for the sake of others. Not necessarily death, either. Some have made the choice to live for a cause. That can often be just as hard as losing your life. Most likely a lot of people are fighting battles that can't be seen by the outside world, but are real and important to the people around them and bear large consequences.

Maybe I'll never be in a situation to sacrifice significantly for a better thing than I ever have before. I guess it's impossible to say, but I do wonder what my choice would be... perhaps it never will come, but I can make sure the little things I do on a daily basis are building my character enough to be the type of person that could sacrifice for the things I deeply care about.

Moral of this post: do your life a favor and read A Tale of Two Cities! It will inspire you.


I Went To The Woods

Sorry for the lack of posting, I've been on vacation! Just a chill, long family reunion. Full of card games, boating, sleeping, movies, rodeos, demolition derbies, and long talks! I have realized something on this trip: I like having moments to myself. To just think and plan. Let me describe it. Laying on a hammock on the deck of my cabin. Watching the sunset from the top of a mountain. Long walks through the woods. I've got my journal out and just thinking about my life. No music blaring in my ears, just me and nature. It's perfect, really. It's those simple moments in life that seem to yield the best ideas and dreams. Far removed from the daily hustle and bustle of life, things appear more simple. It's like pressing pause in the middle of a life going by fast to realize things in a more focused lens.

 I found that some things in my life need to be changed. Some decisions have to be made. Some things are faring much better than I thought. And some things are absolutely perfect.

Henry David Thoreau, one of my favorite writers, said this in Walden, 

"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived." 

I think we all need those moments. To stop and think about how we're living. I like how Thoreau puts it: deliberately. I don't think that means we need to have everything planned out and know exactly what we want. It's more about paying attention and filling our lives with purpose. To recognize what life is teaching and go with it. Instead of living without engaging our mind and heart. In my mind, "going to the woods" can mean escaping anywhere by yourself, enough aesthetic beauty to be inspiring, and something to write with. Those moments recharge your batteries to help you actually live in the best way! My personal favorite place is the beach. Oh I just love it so much! This is a picture I took last year on my trip to Oceanside, CA. What I wouldn't give to be back at that condo...

P.S. So funny story time. One time Shaylee and I had a cleaning check. The person doing the check was ridiculously picky about  everything. Later that night someone asked Shay how thorough the check was. Shay replied with, "like Henry David!" 

Good one :)