12.18.2012

Leaving...

Well, this is it. I'm off to another country to speak another language and to have the best experience of my life.

While I'm gone, my mission updates (my emails, addresses, etc.) will be on my mission blog. Which is here, http://hermanaferrell.blogspot.com/

Much love, blogging world. I'll be back before you know it!

Adios ;) 

12.11.2012

Just Life

This post has 3 topics. Brace yourself.

1. I'm leaving in a week. It doesn't feel real. There are so many things I'm leaving behind me. Things that I know will be here when I get back. Things I know will be somewhere in my future. Things that will never  have a place in my life anymore. I can just feel that my whole life is about to really change. It's a little scary. I'm comfortable right now where I am and as dreamy as new adventures sound, it's hard to actually get on your way.

2. I hate small talk. Okay, I take that back. I don't always hate it. Sometimes it's how you become friends with people. But I hate it when you're in one of those "I want to have a deep talk and cut the crap" moods. I love this quote,

"I hate small talk because I feel like there's an elephant standing in the room and nobody is saying anything. I just want to say, 'Hey, do you feel an emptiness inside your chest at night that is going to swallow you?' or 'are you scared out of your mind to move forward in life?' or 'what are you very most afraid of and why?' But you can't say those things at a cocktail party."

Seriously though. Sometimes I just want to hear people's fears and worries and let them talk about the things they love and are passionate about. I want to talk about mine. I just want to talk. And not about stupid things. About the stuff that matters. I love it when I catch people at just the right moment to have a chat like that. But when I don't (or am just stuck in the library studying) I have to think those things through myself. Which is never as enjoyable. 

3. I adore The Phantom of the Opera. For real!! I've seen it performed a few times, but I have to say, the movie is bomb. I just LOVE that movie! I feel for the Phantom. So sad, but such a great story about how love is sometimes the only thing strong enough to change people. And the music! AMAZING. Christine is gorgeous. The song, Think of Me, is one of my very most favorite songs ever. The lyrics make me cry if I'm in the right mood. I'm not kidding. Today, it made me tear up when I was writing in my journal. Hahah, wowza. How dramatic does that sound? Eh, whatever. I'm a girl and I love a good love story. Also, the song Masquerade is another great one. Ah, this musical is the best. 


This Heart of Mine

I have no idea who reads this blog, but sorry for being repetitive. But here's why I blog: to get my feelings out. I can work things out and figure out how I feel. I can vent. I can think. I don't really write to keep an audience... maybe I should... but for now, I'm writing for me. And I'm really going to miss that on my mission. I guess my personal journal will have to take the place of this blog.

Looking back on my life, I've changed a lot this year. I've made a lot of mistakes. I've hurt people I love. I've been careless with the feelings of others. I've spoken without thinking. Stayed up too late and studied too little. Said some goodbyes I really didn't want to say. But... with all those flaws and mistakes of mine, I've had some really beautiful times as well. I've made absolutely incredible friends. I fell in love. I was so, so happy. I learned a lot about following your heart. I got my mission call. Lost a lot of weight. Became closer with my family. Cut my hair...

So here I am. A mixture of experiences that have left me decidedly and unalterably changed. 


12.07.2012

End of Work... for now!

I just love my job. Seriously, I work with some of the coolest people ever. I've had some incredible opportunities and learned so much. Lots of good talks and absolutely hilarious moments. So today Adam and Rebecca sang and played the uke for me today because it was last day of work! They did Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon Levitt's song called What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? Haha that way I can remember them on New Year's Eve! Seriously, so great. I'll miss this job A TON. But I guess I'm moving on to different things now. A very new type of work lies ahead of me!